[The evening of the 12th, a small envelope smelling of smoke arrives at Max's front door. The note inside is written in Clara's bold, blocky handwriting.]
Max -
I'm afraid I have some unfortunate news, as well as a final request. The Doctor was sent home for a short time, and has returned with his mind wiped of our time together. I knew this was coming, but hoped that we would have longer before it caught up with us. He knows he had a friend named Clara, and he's aware that his memories of me are missing, but he doesn't recognize my face. It's best that this doesn't change. The safety of the universe depends on our separation.
Please check up on him when you can. He's gone through a torturous ordeal, and he needs friends, not a sad stranger. He's very bad at being alone, and if I could offer him any help I would. I'm afraid, however, that all I'll be able to give him is more pain. I've got no idea where I'll wind up, but I can't stay in Heropa right now. I'll let you know once I do.
[Clara takes a deep breath and gathers her thoughts.]
I died, and he went too far to fix it. He put all of time and space at risk, but we both knew it was wrong. We both knew we'd destroy universes to be together, and no one should be worth that.
[Her voice constricts a little.]
We both agreed to it. It's better this way, for everyone.
What happened to him to make him do something that awful? [It can't just be her death... right? Then again, Max accidentally went too far to save Chloe...]
I did something reckless, and neither of us could fix it. But it's okay, Max. I'm okay. We all face it in the end.
[She's spent more time reassuring people about her own death than she has thinking about it herself. It's a bit surreal.]
But he faced something worse. He was alone with his grief for a very long time, and no one should blame him for his pain. It was awful, and it hurts, but I would have done the very same in his shoes. And that's the problem. It's a risk that can't be taken.
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